So the first half of January is gone and I have my goals for 2018.
No, I won’t be sharing the entirety of them here, but I will be talking about a few. Mainly I’ll be sharing the ones having to do with crafting, homesteading, making, and writing.
Here are a few:
- Write two full novels.
- Blog every weekday.
- Teach myself yoga.
- Lots of road trips as a family.
- Create every day.
- Learn to sew.
- Learn hand lettering.
- Keep a Gratitude Journal, and write in it daily.
- Study herbalism.
- Finish the declutter I started last year. (so close!)
I made myself a GOALS Page and stuck it in the front of my planner. Every morning, after writing my Morning Pages, I read my goals and make my my lists based on what is really important to me.
Deep inside, in the place between fear and desire, lives hope.
Hope of a better future.
Hope of the job of your dreams.
Hope of family.
We all have hope.
But how long has it been since you actually looked at your hope? How long has it been since you took it out and examined it, held it up to the light and turned it on every facet? How intimate are you with your hope?
Hope cannot exist in a vacuum. It must be fed and handled and nurtured. Hope neglected is a pale, thin vessel for life.
Yup, you heard me. Ego.
Here is the dictionary’s definition:
noun: a feeling of uncertainty or lack of conviction: some doubt has been cast upon the authenticity of this account
verb 1: [ with obj. ] feel uncertain about • question the truth or fact of (something) [ with clause ] : I doubt if anyone slept that night.• disbelieve (a person or their word): I have no reason to doubt him.• [ no obj. ] feel uncertain
verb 2 [ with clause ] archaic fear; be afraid of
Doubt comes in many forms: skepticism, fear, self consciousness, and flat out disbelief. When you face doubt from an external source it is the ego and belief of the doubter being imposed on you. They know better. They are saving you from yourself. They don’t believe the same thing, so it can’t be true.
Self-doubt is also ego driven.
Yes, that’s right.
Think back to when you doubt yourself. Think back to the times you did not do something out of fear and doubt that you would be judged. Think back to when you held yourself back because of what others would think.
Because you would be called crazy.
Because your ego couldn’t hold up to criticism or scrutiny.
Because you wouldn’t see instant success, and it was therefore easier, better in your own mind, to simply not expose yourself to the world.
To save your ego.
Was giving in to the doubt and your ego worth giving up on the life you want?