:easy is hard:

This is something I tell my kids all the time. I need to tell myself this too.

I’ve committed to blogging like it’s my job (not really my goal here, but that would be sweet!) because I need to do the easy if I want to do the hard. Now, don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying blogging is easier than other types of writing content, but in terms of getting published and putting a part of yourself out there for the world to see? Yeah, hitting the “publish post” button on WordPress is way easier than getting picked up by Random House or the New Yorker. One button and my creation is out in the world.

Just. One. Button.

Terrifying.

The point is to hit that button every weekday. To sit down with my computer or my tablet or my phone and exercise my writer’s mind, and then put it out there.

This blog is one of thousands – hundreds of thousands. There is no guarantee anyone is going to read it. I have no formal plans for the content or demographics or anything other than putting myself in the shoes of Writer.

In fact, anyone reading this should be forewarned that the next month may be filled with posts just like this one.

I hope not, but there you go.

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Doubt: Just Another Word for Ego

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Wait. What?

Yup, you heard me. Ego.

Here is the dictionary’s definition:

Doubt: |dout|

noun: a feeling of uncertainty or lack of conviction: some doubt has been cast upon the authenticity of this account

verb 1: [ with obj. ] feel uncertain about • question the truth or fact of (something) [ with clause ] : I doubt if anyone slept that night.• disbelieve (a person or their word): I have no reason to doubt him.• [ no obj. ] feel uncertain

verb 2 [ with clause ] archaic fear; be afraid of

Doubt comes in many forms: skepticism, fear, self consciousness, and flat out disbelief. When you face doubt from an external source it is the ego and belief of the doubter being imposed on you. They know better. They are saving you from yourself. They don’t believe the same thing, so it can’t be true.

Self-doubt is also ego driven.

Yes, that’s right.

Think back to when you doubt yourself. Think back to the times you did not do something out of fear and doubt that you would be judged. Think back to when you held yourself back because of what others would think.

Because you would be called crazy.

Because your ego couldn’t hold up to criticism or scrutiny.

Because you wouldn’t see instant success, and it was therefore easier, better in your own mind, to simply not expose yourself to the world.

To hide.

To save your ego.

Was giving in to the doubt and your ego worth giving up on the life you want?